For women 40+ who’ve spent years showing up for everyone else — and now…
You’re done smiling through a life that doesn’t even feel like yours.
Because ‘fine’ isn’t good enough anymore, and you’re not going to apologize for wanting more.
Returning to Yourself is the only at-home retreat designed for the woman who has everything… except herself.
A self-paced, soul-soothing reset to help you reclaim your true beauty, feel vibrant again, and enjoy life more than ever
– without years of therapy, spiritual overhauls, or pretending things are ‘OK’.
Lifetime access * Go at your own pace
On the outside, everything looks good. Under control.
But inside… it feels like a waiting room in an eerie spa — candles lit, soft music playing — but the staff is gone and and the orchids have long since withered.
For women in midlife transition — whether post-career, post-divorce, empty nest, or menopause — this season brings more space… but also unexpected disconnection.
Emotions go flat. Rest feels impossible. And the woman they used to be… gone.
Here’s what’s really going on beneath the surface:
EMOTIONAL DISCONNECTION
Many women in midlife appear to be functioning just fine… yet constantly ask themselves, “Is this all there is?”
They’re not in crisis. Nothing’s “wrong.” Life looks good. Comfortable.
But joy, desire, and even pain – all gone.
The nervous system adapts by numbing. This protective mechanism leaves women feeling like they’re moving through life on autopilot. They don’t complain. They say “I’m fine.” And slowly, they become watchers of their own life.
RESTLESS NERVOUS SYSTEM
In a society where rest is ‘unproductive’, slowing down feels unsafe.
Women are socially conditioned to stay busy, prove their worth by doing, giving, taking care of others. Over time, the body adapts by maintaining a near-constant state of activation. Even rest feels like it needs to be earned.
So they keep themselves occupied — not out of desire, but because stopping feels dangerous.
LOSS OF INNER CLARITY
Decades of tending to others often disconnect women from their own instincts, emotions, and desires.
They’ve been the anchor for everyone else — but no one taught them how to stay anchored in themselves. Gut feeling? Gone. Desires are hard to name. Decision-making feels foggy.
Even with tools like journaling or therapy, they can’t hear themselves clearly — and it leaves them unsure of what they truly want or need.
And when this happens
Most women respond in one of two ways:
SCENARIO 1: They double down on self-care and ‘feel good’ activities.
They go to another spa day. Hire a stylist. Fly to Bali.
It should help… but it doesn’t.
Nothing feels really good. The excitement fades quickly.
And that uncanny emptiness? It just grows bigger.
OR
SCENARIO 2: They push through and pretend it’s “fine”.
They tell themselves it’s just a phase. They stay productive, helpful, and composed. They smile through the flatness. And no one around them notices — because they’re always doing their part. But inside, the ache for ‘something more’ gets stronger and stronger.
I’m here to help you put an end to all of this —
without overthinking, overworking, or pushing yourself to “go deep” before you’re ready.
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There IS a reason the spa days, personal trainer, and skincare rituals haven’t touched the part of you that feels off. (Flatness isn’t something you can scrub away.)
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There IS a reason that pushing through, doing more, and keeping it all together hasn’t brought the joy back. (Strength and aliveness are not the same thing.)
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There IS a reason why even in your calmest moments, you still feel emotionally distant. (Space alone isn’t enough when you’ve lost connection with the woman inside it.)
And no — this isn’t your fault.
You were taught to care for your body, not your emotional world.
You were taught to be composed, not “messy”.
You were taught to be nice, not to grieve the roles and identities that are shifting away.
Here’s what no one tells you:
Numbness or hyperactivity aren’t weaknesses. They’re protection.
It’s your nervous system stepping in — doing exactly what it was designed to do when you’ve been carrying too much for too long.
That flatness? The urge to be busy? That fog?
It’s your system saying:
“Let’s disconnect… until it’s safe to feel again.”
And that disconnection is like taking out a plug of ALIVENESS from your life.
Without it, the most exciting things bring no joy, no satisfaction.
Something that most women will never hear:
Your energy is your beauty.
Your glow doesn’t come from a serum or a wellness routine.
It comes from the energy you carry when you feel like yourself.
When that connection fades, no skincare, no stylist, no holiday destination can restore what’s missing.
Because what’s missing… is your QI — your vital life force.
In Traditional Chinese Medicine, Qi is the energy that flows through you when you feel safe, alive, and whole.
It’s what makes you feel ALIVE and LIVING.
Brings back all the joys of life.
And after guiding hundreds of women through emotional reconnection, based on experience, neuroscience and ancient medicine, I’ve found that restoring your inner beauty – your vital life force – comes down to three essential truths:
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You don’t need to be fixed — you just need permission to feel again.
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You don’t need to go deep — you just need somewhere safe to begin.
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You don’t need to ‘try harder’ — you just need self-regulation, done with gentleness and zero pressure.
When these truths are honored something inside you — something vital — begins to wake up.
You feel more present.
More alive.
More you.
The world outside hasn’t changed a bit.
But suddenly, everything feels more vivid, joyful, exciting — because you’re back.
That’s what real self-care was always meant to be.
That’s the next level of beauty – the kind that can’t be bought or performed.
That’s soul-deep radiance — and it doesn’t wash off at night.
Some people might call it soul beauty.
I call it coming home to yourself.
Now, you might be thinking:
“Soul beauty? Vitality? I get it… but I don’t know how to feel that way.”
“I’ve tried all the things, and I still feel flat.”
“Where do I even begin?”
That’s exactly why I created this course:
To help women reclaim their true beauty.
To restore your energy.
To awaken your senses.
To return you to a life that feels vibrant, meaningful, and unmistakably yours.
It’s my mission:
To make soul-deep vitality the new standard of self-care — and to remind women that their true beauty starts within.
The only at-home retreat designed for the woman who has ‘everything'… except herself.
For women 40+ who are done living behind the smile — so they can reclaim their true beauty, feel vibrant again, and enjoy life more than ever without years of therapy, spiritual overhauls, or pretending everything’s fine.
✖️ This isn’t therapy.
✖️ It’s not a spiritual bootcamp.
✖️ And it’s definitely not another mindset “fix.”
✖️ No pressure.
✖️ No performance.
✖️ No need to analyze your past, go deep, or “do the work.”
It’s exactly what your system needs to soften the numbness, quiet the noise, and reconnect with what’s real.
Finally feel like you again.
I call this a spa for the soul because surface-level self-care can’t reach the place where true beauty lives.
The beauty that radiates when your vital life force flows again — not through effort, but through presence.
The kind that isn’t achieved — but remembered.
It’s a spa for the soul —
for women who are ready to stop fixing themselves on the outside and begin feeling themselves on the inside again.
YOUR JOURNEY WITH ‘RETURNING TO YOURSELF’
WEEK 1 / From Numbness to Noticing
When life flattens out, the body doesn’t stop feeling — it just stops telling you.
This week is about re-entering gently. No pressure. No forcing. Just quiet moments of reconnection — so your system starts to believe it’s safe to feel again.
What We’ll Work On:
• Understand what emotional numbness really is (and why it’s not your fault)
• Begin noticing subtle sensations in your body — so that you can rebuild trust with your inner signals safely and without pressure
• Start rebuilding the connection between mind and body through breath, movement, and rest — so that you can begin feeling grounded, even on busy days
Practices Included:
✨ The Gentle Reentry Breath Practice (4 - 8 min) — calm overwhelm and come back to your body
✨ Practice Journal prompt - A conversation with your body (5-10 min)
✨ Qigong for Reconnection & Tapping (25 min) — soft, beginner-friendly energy movement and start releasing resistance around feeling again
Estimated time: 35–45 minutes total — broken into short, manageable moments throughout the week.
“You don’t have to feel everything at once. You just have to begin listening.”
WEEK 2 / Your Nervous System Knows
When life becomes too much, your body steps in to protect you.
This week is about understanding how your nervous system responds to pressure, overstimulation, and emotional overwhelm — so you can begin working with your body, not against it.
What We’ll Work On:
• Learn how your nervous system protects you from feeling too much — so that you can stop blaming yourself and begin reconnecting safely
• Understand freeze, fawn, and hyperdrive states — so that you can recognize your own patterns and begin to shift gently
• Explore body-based tools for expression and grounding — so that emotions can move through you, instead of getting stuck
Bonus Practices Included:
✨ Guided Body Scan Meditation (10 min) — notice what’s happening inside without pressure or analysis
✨ Qigong - Connect with your body & calm your nervous system Calm (22 min) — soften protection patterns through gentle, intuitive movement
✨ Journaling Prompts for Release (10–15 min) — simple, safe ways to let emotions express themselves
Estimated time: 30 - 45 minutes total — designed to be gentle, self-paced, and repeatable anytime.
“Your body is wise. Let’s listen to its rhythm.”
WEEK 3 / Restore Your Balance
Once you start feeling again, the next step is learning how to hold it — without getting overwhelmed or shutting down.
This week is about restoring emotional balance from the inside out. Through breath, movement, and gentle exploration, you’ll reconnect with your inner rhythm and let your energy flow again — calmly, naturally, without pressure.
What We’ll Work On:
• Reconnect with your three energy centers (mind, heart, belly) — so that you feel grounded, centered, and whole
• Notice where emotions live in your body — so that stuck energy can soften and move again
• Explore your masculine/feminine balance (yang & yin) — so that you can stop swinging between extremes and return to your natural flow
Bonus Practices Included:
✨ Qigong - Healing sounds organ meditation (25 min) — a gentle movement sequence to restore inner harmony
✨ Creative Release Prompt (5–10 min) — a short invitation to let energy move through art or writing
✨ Qigong - Connecting Left & Right - (20 min) — working with yin and yang energy
Estimated time: 40 – 50 minutes total — with flexible practices you can return to anytime.
“Wholeness is not perfection — it’s harmony within.”
WEEK 4 / Return to Inner Knowing
As the disconnection softens, your own clarity begins to return.
This week is about tuning in — not to get more information, but to your own inner knowing. You’ll learn how to notice what’s shifted, trust what you feel, and begin living from the inside out again.
What We’ll Work On:
• Recognize and celebrate small emotional shifts — so that you stop waiting for big breakthroughs and start trusting your progress
• Practice daily emotional check-ins — so that you can stay connected to your inner world, even when life gets full
• Rebuild intuitive trust and body-led clarity — so that decisions become easier and your “yes” feels grounded and real
Bonus Practices Included:
✨ The Embodied YES Practice (8–10 min) — a simple breath and body-based tool to find clarity from within
✨ Heart-Brain Coherence Meditation (10 min) — calm your mind and reconnect with your emotional truth
✨ Empower technique - “Iam” technique (10 min) - To raise your vibration, making you feel better and less receptive to the thoughts and emotions of others.
✨ End-of-Retreat Ritual Guide — design your own closing ritual to honor your return
Estimated time: 30–40 minutes total — or 5–10 minutes a day to deepen the connection.
“You don’t need more advice. You need deeper trust in yourself.”
“Alieke helped me find peace I didn’t know was possible.”
"She changed how I see myself, my family, and the world, teaching me how to find and maintain peace.
I now see myself with more confidence, approach my family with greater understanding, and navigate the world with a calm and grounded mindset. I’ve learned how to keep peace in my life, no matter what comes my way."
– LeAnn
WHAT YOU’LL COME AWAY WITH
This isn’t a course you push through.
It's an at-home, 4-week mini-retreat you gently snuggle into — in soft clothes, with warm tea, on your terms.
As you move through it, you’ll begin to:
• Feel small flickers of aliveness return — even if you’ve felt flat for years
• Reconnect with your emotional self — without needing to “go deep” or perform your healing
• Create a new relationship with your body and inner world — gentle, respectful, intuitive so you can listen to your body with compassion and build trust in what it’s telling you
• Pause without guilt — and experience true rest that nourishes, — not numbs, avoids, or disconnects
• Experience beauty from the inside out — not because you changed, but because you came home
“You are not returning to chaos.
You are returning to your beauty.”
This is beauty beyond appearance.
It’s the kind that returns when your life force flows again — softly, steadily, and on your terms.
HERE’S A QUICK SUMMARY OF ALL YOU GET INSIDE
‘RETURNING TO YOURSELF ‘
✦ 4 Soul-Led Weekly Modules
Each week gently guides you through a new layer of emotional reconnection — using breath, movement, reflection, and sensory tools.
These aren’t just videos. They’re invitations to pause, feel, and soften into yourself.
Value: €240
✦ 4 Printable Reflection Workbooks
These beautifully designed PDFs are more than worksheets — they’re like a quiet conversation with yourself.
Filled with journal prompts, body awareness practices, and simple rituals, each one is a soft landing pad to meet yourself where you are.
Because deep change happens when you feel, not just think.
Value: €160
✦ 4 Welcome Videos
Gentle video introductions to each weekly theme — designed to help you land, center, and open without overwhelm.
Value: €100
✦ 4 Gentle Qigong Practices
No flexibility or experience needed — these soft, energy-based movement videos are designed to help you reconnect with your body’s rhythm and restore emotional flow.
Whether you’re feeling frozen, anxious, or just tired — Qigong meets you where you are.
Value: €240
✦ 2 Guided Audios
Soothing, soul-led audio practices to help you slow down, breathe deeply, and reconnect with your body and inner rhythm. Each recording is designed to gently support your emotional and energetic return — whether through breath, visualization, or grounding awareness.
Perfect for moments when you want to feel held without needing to think.
Value: €80
✦ Lifetime Access + Optional 1:1 Support
Return to this retreat as many times as you need it. Emotional reconnection is not a one-time thing — it’s a rhythm you can come back to again and again.
And if you ever feel stuck? You can book a free 1:1 support call with Alieke to help you gently find your way forward.
Value: Ongoing
🎁 Limited-Time Bonuses to Support Your Return
Because feeling again shouldn’t come with pressure — and your healing deserves softness, not urgency — these gentle bonus tools are included to deepen your experience… and make the return even easier.
✦ BONUS #1: 1on1 session with Alieke
A personal, intuitive session tailored to where you are right now.
Whether you're seeking clarity, emotional release, or deeper alignment, Alieke will guide you through powerful tools like energy work, breath, and gentle inquiry to help you reconnect with yourself — softly, honestly, and without pressure.
Value: €220
TOTAL VALUE: €1040
TODAY'S PRICE €55
Lifetime access * Go at your own pace
Stories from Women Who Found Their Way Back
When she cried within minutes of meeting me, she didn’t know why.
When she said yes to the session without knowing what it was, she just followed something deeper.
When she released emotions that had been waiting for decades, she didn’t have to name them.
She just felt.
That’s the power of this work—it doesn’t need to be explained to be real. It needs to be felt.
Viktoriya
“And things did happen, in the most unexpected ways. First, I felt like it was a very long PMS… thinking it was some hormonal glitch that would eventually go away. However, I had to accept that it wasn’t a hormonal glitch. It was as if I were recalibrating and readjusting myself, both within myself and with the people around me.
It is impossible to explain with words, but the FEELING was obvious - I had the mountain on my shoulders falling off slowly but surely. And while getting used to something that is missing within you takes time (regardless of whether it's good or bad), eventually, I felt the release of energy that had been overwhelming me all this time.
It’s like the accumulation and suppression of all the emotions during your life has its weight, and finally the weight was gone and I was adjusted to being light.”
Silvia
“I didn’t realize how numb I’d become… until I felt myself again.”
"After the session, I felt completely grounded and pleasantly surprised by the depth of my self-reflection under Alieke's guidance. Her insightful approach led to several 'Aha-moments' that were both enlightening and empowering!"
Cecilia
I felt free, clear, and more confident than I have in years.”"I didn’t even realize I had a limiting belief until Alieke helped me uncover it. The shift in my mindset was incredible, and I left the session feeling free, clear, and more confident than I’ve felt in years.
These aren’t just feel-good stories.
They’re proof of what’s possible—even if you’re starting from frozen.
This is the lowest price this course will ever be.
It may increase without notice. Now is the best time to say yes.
Meet Your Guide
Alieke Van Esterik
CREATOR OF RETURNING TO YOURSELF & FOUNDER OF THE FLOWAYS FLOURISHING METHOD
I work with high-achieving, deeply reflective women over 40 who’ve hit a quiet turning point — post-career, post-divorce, post-children, or deep in menopause — and suddenly wonder:
“Where did I go?”
Through years of training in Qigong, subconscious healing, energy medicine, and emotional integration, I’ve created a powerful yet gentle method that meets women right at this edge:
The moment where life is shifting… but you don’t want to fall apart.
I’ve guided hundreds of women through this return — helping them soften the flatness, hear themselves again, and feel that sense of inner beauty and clarity that can’t be bought or faked.
My signature approach blends nervous system science with ancient practices — no overwhelm, no spiritual overhauls — just what works.
Because reclaiming your vitality isn’t about “doing the work.”
It’s about remembering the woman you were always meant to be.
And that’s exactly what this course was created to help you do.
Who This Is For (And Who It’s Not)
This isn’t for everyone. And that’s intentional.
Returning to Yourself is for you if:
• You’re a woman 40+ navigating a life transition — like empty nest, divorce, menopause, or redefining your role.
• You feel emotionally flat, disconnected, or unsure how to care for yourself on the inside.
• You’re new to inner work, but know something needs to change — gently.
• You want to feel more present, more alive, and more like yourself — without deep analysis or heavy emotional digging.
• You’re drawn to beauty, calm, and soulful experiences — and you’re ready to bring that inward.
This is not for you if:
• You’re in acute emotional crisis or actively processing deep trauma (therapy would be more supportive right now).
• You’re looking for fast transformation, major mindset rewiring, or high-intensity coaching.
• You’re uncomfortable with self-reflection or uninterested in exploring your emotional life.
• You need a highly structured, step-by-step system or external accountability to take action.
This is a soft space.
A pause.
A self-led sanctuary.
If your system is asking for gentleness — this is for you.
Here’s Everything You’ll Get Inside Returning to Yourself
A 4-Week Guided At-Home Retreat
✔️ 4 Weekly Soul-Led Modules
Self-paced video lessons to gently reconnect with your body, energy, and emotions
Value: €240
✔️ 4 Printable Reflection Workbooks
Spacious, nourishing prompts and body-based practices — like a quiet conversation with yourself
Value: €160
✔️ 4 Opening Videos
Short, centering intros to help you land at the start of each week
Value: €100
✔️ 4 Gentle Qigong Practices
Beginner-friendly movement to support energy flow, nervous system calm, and reconnection
Value: €240
✔️ 2 Guided Audios
Soothing, soul-led audio practices to help you slow down, breathe deeply, and reconnect with your body and inner rhythm.
Value: €80
✔️ Lifetime Access + Come back anytime.
Value: Ongoing
Limited-Time Bonuses to Support Your Return
✦ BONUS #1: 1 on 1 session with Alieke
A personal, intuitive session tailored to where you are right now.
Whether you're seeking clarity, emotional release, or deeper alignment, Alieke will guide you through powerful tools like energy work, breath, and gentle inquiry to help you reconnect with yourself — softly, honestly, and without pressure.
Value: €220
Total Value: €1040
Your Investment: Only €55
Ready to feel again — softly, safely, on your own terms?
Because you’ve given enough. This one’s for you.
Why €55?
I chose this price intentionally.
I believe that tending to your inner beauty should feel luxurious — but never out of reach.
You’ve held it all together for years.
This is your space to soften — without guilt, pressure, or needing to justify your needs.
For the price of a single therapy session or a massage…
You get a beautiful, soul-led experience you can return to again and again:
anytime you feel disconnected.
anytime life shifts.
anytime you need a soft place to land.
No weekly appointments.
No unpacking your past.
No long-term commitments.
What’s included:
✔️ A full 4-week self-guided retreat
✔️ Over €1040 in healing tools, practices, and guidance
✔️ Lifetime access
✔️ A gentle return to the woman you’ve quietly lost touch with
Just exactly what you need, when you need it — for less than a new serum, a massage, or a dinner out.
And the truth? Waiting comes at a cost.
• The cost of staying flat, even when life looks full.
• The cost of looking radiant on the outside… while feeling invisible inside.
• The cost of yet another season passing, while you quietly hope the spark returns on its own.
You’ve done the outer work.
Now, for a fraction of the price, you get to experience the inner one —wrapped in softness, stillness, and beauty.
Only €55
This is the next level of beauty — and it begins from within.
MY PROMISE TO YOU
You don’t need to feel ready.
You don’t need to be sure this will work.
You just need to begin.
And I want that beginning to feel safe.
So here’s my promise:
If you move through Returning to Yourself and feel no shift — no softening, no flicker of reconnection, no moment of presence — you can request a full refund within 7 days. No guilt. No questions.
I’m not here to convince you.
I’m here to care for you.
Because this isn’t about selling a course.
It’s about making sure you don’t have to walk this season alone.
And I know this works!
I’ve seen over and over again what can happen when a woman gives herself just a little space to feel again.
That’s why I offer not only a 7-day money-back guarantee, but also a complimentary 1:1 support call if you feel unsure or stuck. You don’t have to figure it out alone — I’ll walk with you.
Because I’m not just confident in this course.
I’m confident in you.
And in what’s quietly waiting inside you to return.
FREQUENTLY ASKED QUESTIONS
How much time will this take?
I’ve tried other things and they didn’t help. How is this different?
What if I start and don’t finish?
What if I don’t feel anything?
I’m afraid I’ll feel too much—or nothing at all.
Do I need to have experience with energy work or meditation?
What if I go through this course and don't feel any changes?
ARE YOU READY TO RETURN?
You’ve held so much. For so long.
You’ve been the strong one. The composed one.
The one others could count on. And now, life has shifted.
There’s space. But instead of peace, there’s quiet.
Instead of joy, there’s stillness.
Instead of clarity, there’s a quiet ache you can’t quite name.
This course isn’t here to fix you.
Because you’re not broken.
It’s here to offer you something most women never receive:
A beautiful, safe place to begin again. To soften. To feel.
To come home to the parts of you that got quiet while you were busy holding everything else.
For €55, you’ll get lifetime access to tools, guidance, and support that were created for one purpose:
✨ To help you feel like you again.
Not the version you were. Not the one others expect.
But the woman who’s been patiently waiting underneath it all.
If even one part of you is whispering “yes”… Trust her.
That whisper is your return already beginning.
YES — I’M READY TO RETURN TO MYSELF
